relationship

i been staying with him for weeks after we broke up.. but however, things arent going the way we wanted. it hurts more than what we expected. been checkin his facebook so as him checking mine. seriously, jealousy and sadness pops up everytime we both saw each other contacting opposite sex people and stuffs. he been having his life so as me. i seldom go out anymore as i dont drive and transport been a big problem for me to go out especially in the night. all i can say is i am sorry for hurting you. afterall i am not a good girlfriend. i could not play my role as your girlfriend that well and as what you expected. i tried changing your thinking throughout this whole week we been staying together but i failed. your mind is totally fixed. all i can do is listen to breakup songs and cry all by myself in the blanket. although you were beside me, but u never bother. probably u wanna comfort me but u dont know how. i cant blame u for that either. i have small amount of friends to talk to thus i only can blog. i wish i could hug u whenever i am sad. but i need to ask your permissions first. that is so awkward though. i wish things could be better between us as time passes by. love you lots!